Monday, June 26, 2006

When I say, "I am a Christian"...

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not shouting, "I've been saved!"
I'm whispering, "I get lost! That's why I chose this way"

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't speak with human pride
I'm confessing that I stumble - needing God to be my guide

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not trying to be strong
I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not bragging of success
I'm admitting that I've failed and cannot ever pay the debt

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't think I know it all
I submit to my confusion asking humbly to be taught

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are far too visible but God believes I'm worth it

When I say, "I am a Christian," I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartache which is why I seek His name

When I say, "I am a Christian," I do not wish to judge
I have no authority -- I only know I'm loved

- Carol Zimmer -

What humility has the author express in the poem! And what insight has she in exposing the self-righteous smugness that has become all too common in Christendom! Reflect upon the words of the poem: no, not just as a sickly sentimental poetry, but as a mirror of our own caricaturistic practise of Christianity!

Friday, June 23, 2006

All is Vanity

"All is Vanity" - Charles Allan Gilbert (1873 - 1929)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Forgiveness Comes With A Price

Just because God's grace is free for everyone doesn't make it cheap. Keep in mind that everytime we pray for God's forgiveness, God doesn't just take a glimpse on our petition and give a green light 'Forgiven' and go on with the next prayer request. No, everytime we ask for forgiveness, God's been beaten, whipped, spit at, humiliated, and nailed through the hands and feet for our shortcomings.

Just because Jesus uttered "It is finished!" 2000 years ago doesn't mean that all the pain and suffering he has to go through for us is something of the past and long forgotten, as he still bears the mark of the crucifixion to this day and will bear it for all eternity. Forgiveness comes at a price, not on us, but on our beloved Lord and Saviour. Remember that everytime you ask for forgiveness, lest you mock God's sacrifice for us unworthy sinners.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Matching Results

In the computer matching, you have been allocated a place for clinical training at:

University of Auckland, New Zealand

Then blablabla...

The International Medical University wishes you success in your future career.

Thank God! Wat a relief... Well, I can finally recollect myself and start my revision now lol. At least, I hope I could... (Keat's laughing at me now... >.<)

To those who got the partner medical schools they want, congrats. To those who are appealing, all the best!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Hope/ Resignation

How does one hope for the best, and still prepare for the worst simultaneously? Living with the two extremes constantly in my mind has lead me into a chronic, relapsing depression for the past couple of weeks, as the strain of living with these two extremes in mind caused a sort of tension in me that I have never experienced before.

I want to hope for the best and continuously have faith that it will happen, for did God not say that if you have faith as little as a mustard seed, you can move mountains? Yet at the same time, how would I know that if by constantly hoping for the best from my perspective, that I'm not denying God's will? Should one stick to an outcome in mind and pray rigorously for it, or should he just resign everything and leave everything into God's hands?

Abraham, Abraham, I can't never understand you. How did you managed to be both the Knight of Infinite Resignation AND Knight of Faith at the same time? How can you obediently go forward with the order to sacrifice your son whom God promised will continue his line as the father of nations, yet at the same time have not even a single strain of doubt that God will not break his promise? How did you managed to live with such contradictory extremities and yet, completely un-plagued by doubts?